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No difference in opinion should ever result in someone wishing "death upon a child who is not vaccinated and/or parents of the un-vaccinated child being shot and burned." Yep you read it right, that is just one of the many obscene comments I have read recently scrolling through social media. Guys this has to stop. This hate has to stop. I wholeheartedly understand where the fear is coming from. I am a mother. I am a wife. I am a daughter, sister, granddaughter, friend, cousin, niece, and auntie. I get the fear of seeing someone you love falling ill. It’s terrifying. So when something like a vaccine is created with the intention of preventing an illness why would we even give it a second thought, right? Medicine has come so far, praise God. We are truly blessed to live in country that has everything at its finger tips including medicine. We get sick and Google the nearest urgent care. Most of the time we can be seen without a wait time because there’s one on every corner. So please don’t think for one second I don’t feel blessed to live in a country that has medicine literally an arms length away.

We do not vaccinate, holy cow my hands are trembling as I type those words. I am fearful of harm coming to my family or being ostracized for being this transparent with you. I can feel the feverish eyes glaring at me through the screen, please hear me out.

My daughter didn’t have an adverse reaction to a vaccine but she does have a rare medical condition that we believe worsened with the two vaccines she did receive. She was misdiagnosed for a month and even with her "rash" we were instructed by her pediatrician to still vaccinate. The day we allowed this to happen I had a gut wrenching feeling in my stomach. I couldn't shake the conviction I had. Her poor body went from 15 spots to hundreds a week later. Her tiny body would flush bright cherry red from head to toe up to six times a day. My husband and I prayed over the decision to further vaccinate. I also put my nose to the grindstone researching vaccines; not just a quick Google search either. I dove into books, watched documentaries, skimmed through data and reached out to parents of vaccine injured children looking for more information. I have really poured my time and energy into this. I wanted to know without a shadow of a doubt what would be best for my child. I wanted to make an informed decision. Not one based on "just because someone told me so" or fear-mongering. I wanted to know why it was good and see for myself. Every pro and and every con.

I didn't like what I found. I don't like the mortality rate I found that vaccines themselves have caused and still are causing. I don't like that there is a law preventing the CDC from being held responsible when adverse reactions do occur.Personally, this shows me that they could really get away with anything and have. When accountability is taken out of the equation, well that becomes a scary thought.The epidemic does not lie in how to cure infectious diseases anymore; but in the incurable adverse reactions caused by these so called "preventative" vaccines.

If our daughter were to be immunized she would have to be given them one at a time in a hospital and monitored for 24 hours. Doctors to this day back us into a corner at almost every appointment concerning her vaccinations. Giving us options to monitor her. To you that might seem like a concerned doctor following through to make sure nothing happens. To me that is a warning sign I must heed too. It leaves me with distaste in my mouth that vaccines aren't as safe as they claim.We believe that if our child must be watched then there are risks they aren’t telling us.The ingredients in them can disrupt her Mast Cells at anytime and cause anaphylaxis or death. Her cells already act inappropriately to begin with. Her body does not regulate the chemicals responsible for the inflammatory response like that of someone without her condition. The fact that a doctor still lectures us on vaccines being her safest gamble against an infectious disease is absurd to me.

I’m so exhausted from fighting doctors on a choice that we believe is best for our child. I'm heartbroken at witnessing hate across my social media because of this very subject. God gave mothers and fathers an innate intuition for a reason. We have been conditioned as parents and people to not follow this intuition or trust it because "science"; because medical professionals have only our best interest in mind. Which I do believe to an extent and I would hope their genuine and healing spirit is what has driven them to care for sick people. Unfortunately, I cannot tell you how many times as a child that my mother had to take me back to the doctor because she was right about an illness and the doctor was wrong. I had to do the same with my own child every week for a month before they listened to me. People don’t realize that doctors and other medical professionals are “practicing medicine” they aren’t all-knowing, they do make mistakes and there is grace for that because we all are imperfect beings.

Right now my main concern is the fact that we as a society are in raging war with one another over this topic. Instead of welcoming an open minded conversation with one another, and listening to understand the opposing side; we shut each other down just as quickly as those harsh words pass our lips. We have started bullying one another and condemning anyone that doesn’t have the same perspective, especially surrounding this topic.

I'm disgusted by the lack of love and respect we have for one another. We preach about it on Sundays and coach our children to be kind every day before we send them off to school. But, do we actually apply it to ourselves? From what I have seen we just point fingers, pass judgment, and play the blame game.

How far gone are we as a nation that we can wish ill will on people just because we make different choices? This is supposed to be a country where ALL lives matter, even the un-vaccinated ones.

All this bickering back and forth is counterproductive we would find a better solution if we worked together. Parent shaming needs to stop. Disagreements can be productive but not to the extent of spewing hatred. We all agree on one common goal and that is to do anything we possibly can to keep our children healthy. Both parties need to recognize this and appreciate it; allow that commonality to drive us to a better solution than taking away freedoms and striping people of their rights. Lets leave a positive legacy to our children. One that they witnessed adults having indifference's but no matter how big or small overcame them with love, respect, and a solution in hand.

Instead of taking freedom of choice away from parents we could mandate that all physicians be held responsible and reliable for explaining informed consent and educating parents on adverse reactions. We could also test each child at birth for gene mutations like MTHFR, in which these children should never receive vaccinations due to serious side affects. As a first world country we can do better at researching safer more effective ingredients that don't contain aborted fetal cells, animal parts and heavy metals. Don't take my word for it! I encourage you to do some digging of your own. Much like you would research the best school, car seat, or pediatrician for child. I will attach a few links below that I have found helpful. Don't be afraid to ask questions.

YOUR VOICE MATTERS!

-manic mom

http://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/pubs/pinkbook/downloads/appendices/b/excipient-table-2.pdf

https://www.ageofautism.com/2016/06/wheres-the-outrage-vaccines-and-aborted-fetal-tissue.html

www.cdc.gov/vaccines/vac-gen/side-effects.htm

https://www.nvic.org/nvic-vaccine-news/january-2018/new-human-fetal-cell-lines-for-vaccine-production.aspx

https://www.facebook.com/InformedChoiceWashington/posts/634308550246034

www.StopMandatoryVaccination.com